disease & sleep-deprivation...

i've already had it with this sleep-deprivation bit and it's only been 17 days since LC was born. i seem to think i was more game for it the last 2 times, but, honestly, i probably wasn't. everyone always says how great it is that i sleep train my kids so young, so they are sleeping through the night at 8 weeks for P. and 12 weeks for swanky. (and, this is sleeping 8 hour stretches; none of this where some docs considering sleeping through the night at 5-6 hour stretches.) but, what they don't realize is, is that it is totally self-serving. if i could operate like a 'normal person' (read not sideswipe cars, not be able to form sentences, not forget half of my obligations), i might be game for this longer. i'm looking forward to the baby nurse showing up next week (which is a first for us after the 4th pregnancy). hopefully, LC will have dropped the 2 am feed when we introduce the bottle topper in a few days. and, my friend said the nurse will feed him the 5am feed (with pumped breastmilk), so i'll get some sleep for a few weeks. this is why i waited to have her come til he was 3.5 weeks old as that is the height of my desperation with the sleep-deprivation. my husband said someone pointed out to him that sleeping in 2 hour chunks is considered torture according to the geneva convention and that is what all mothers go through.

so, we got some bad news 2 days ago. dr. brock called to say LC does have carnitine transporter deficiency. my breathing became quickly stifled and i felt a weight on my chest. good news is its entirely treatable, bad news is complications can be dire and there will be a lot to deal with when he's sick (and doesn't feel like eating). this disease affects 1 in 40,000 and so would be it our luck - now, we've managed to get this and toxo which was 1 in 200,000 odds. not a huge good luck streak...more on this later.